J.A.C.K.

The world tells me I'm cynical but all I'm tryna do is be a bit lyrical

I stare at my shadows thinking you behind me

You were once beside me now I'm alone doing this rhyming

And I keep climbing hoping I don't drop

I made a few new friends but the memories don't stop

We were like warriors born and bred in the wild

But I ask God right now why did you have to take a child?

The one who brought the definition to the realest smile

so fearless he could take down anyone with his fist and style

and You meant a lot to me like notorious b.i.g. did to pac

You left this world without me, leaving a mark on my heart

And nothing could tear us apart right from the start

World doesn't seem interesting anymore I'm lost in the dark

'Cause HE took away only thing that mattered like a spark

They tell me to move on, but I'm not strong enough

I can't bury the past when my present seems so tough

Imma rap till I last, the day I will turn to dust

At first I gotta say homie this world is mean and unjust

They use you then throw you around, thats the reason I don't trust

And it was a plus when you were around like a midnight star

But all I can say is I'll be there wherever you are

See this halo on my head, see, my face has a scar

I'm too weak to travel to heaven, God why you so far?

and of course J.A.C.K. is the letters you'll find on my constellation stars!!

Last Bench Cipher!

You can take my grade away but you cannot take my pride

You got them others afraid but you know who's dead inside?

You throw us around like we some sort of tool

Why should I complete my books? Am I in a fuckin' school?

You teach and you preach but you got a bad temper

It's like my smile angers your mind then you go hyper

And curse a backbencher decode his ass like its a cipher

Gun you down with a rifle cause you were todays supervisor

And it would be wiser if you stop being a patronizer

You got a grudge with me but don't you judge me, criticizer!

You talk about our future tell us that we are going down the drain

But it is you who will suffer pain in your brain

This ain't a curse just a piece of advice

Respect us for the way we are, don't you ball your eyes

Damn I miss my second year life, time flies before you even realise

Now you are on the fire the next second you are paralyzed

frozen in a block of ice but you cannot let yourself be downsized

Someday they'll be surprised cause like a phoenix from the ashes YOU WILL RISE!

Angel on the Shoulder!

Sometimes it may feel that you have lost the battle

Sometimes your feet becomes too weak to travel

Love starts to hate you, your shadow tries to evade you

And in your heart you know that your friends ready to cremate you

But you gotta know that love is what made you

And even though I'm an atheist I'm ready to aid you

They played you and took your heart away

But you gotta try to keep your sorrow at bay

'Cause you only live once, stop thinking about the past

Agony and sufferings go hand in hand but I'm sure todays the last

Gotta assure yourself that you'll prosper no matter what?

And watch the world that ignored you burning like a crack pot

And if you reading this, sit down with me sometime and we'll sort

about our preferences and indifferences, yeah I miss my old me a lot!

And I admit I miss my homie who used to rock 

the floor pretty great

Locked my ego in a trunk, thinking about the heaven gates

I'll not let you jump out this window cause I know that state

My heads feeling numb cause I'm too evil to mate

with these people so overweight with their own problems

Reach out brother grab my hand and we can solve em

And to all my mates who feel like they aren't being loved

There are plenty of fishes in the sea ready to serve

My advice is get rich and they'll fly around you like a dove

Just Keep ya head up and look up into the sky above

Think of what you have and all the people that care silently

I'll be the angel on your shoulder watching over you quietly!

Ugly and proud!

Born ugly and broke, yet I'm thankful to God

Treated like a joke, 'cause I find it hard to afford

all the gadgets and the latest accesorries

with Android OS and those annoying blackberries

I stay stranded in this age of technology

My wishes never granted, God don't acknowledge me

And this college be

becoming more and more hectic

Its a season of Love but I find myself sceptic

Seems like my mind and heart got opposite perspective

My songs be ineffective, wrote a lot but she doesn't respect it

Deliberately she pretend to hate me

And lately I've been in love greatly

But the fact that she doesn't care don't phase me

I'm twice as strong now and when I swear, I go crazy

I open my arms out wide but she doesn't embrace me

Fuck it! I might as well hit you with an empty bucket

Thanking God, moving on, got an empty pocket

Criticizing me was so unwise, you better lock it

in your brain that I refrain the pain

and I'm trained to unchain these chains

You go your way, I'll go my way

'Cause I'm the way I am

No matter what a bitch says

I ain't gonna change and I got no change

for your petty mind, I can't arrange

my lifestyle even though I love your smile

I don't see your shine anymore, you make me feel low

And I don't see your face glow 'cause I burnt the page

in which I wrote how I was engaged with you and died an old age

I don't know how many men you've caged?

How many souls have you trapped? how many stares you exchanged?

and maybe I'm crazed 'cause i'm the ugliest emcee on the planet

you just a hater now, and I take no haters for granted!

In Search of God (Drownin')!

Head's got a subtle brain,

looking at the mirror my body's in double pain

Moving from cities to cities, but still stuck in the fast lane,

'cause after the fire came the rain

and after pleasure there's pain

If you think rain's making you love

Guess what? you've gone insane

Always been my destiny to be lonely

and I write rhymes so that it won't blow me

and take my ass back to asylum

Mind's acidic like this rain, gotta huge problem

'cause I wrote disses on my friend

And this demons make my ego bend

like a cloudy weather, I can't make out whether

I'm a human or a fallen angel, losing all my feathers

Fire in my speech but truth is what I preach, 

still I talk trash and dress like a messy beggar

This ain't a song, this is me correcting all my errors

This is me trying and controlling my temper

Hope this rain washes away all the hate and the guilt

my body's weak but my thoughts be well built

Climb up the hill, 'cause I don't wanna drown in this flood

I'm shivering and I can't swim my feets stuck in the mud

Calling out the name of the Lord, water in my vocal chord,

Can I be saved even if I've got issues with the GOD?

A realization

Todays the day I realised I'm all alone

Spittin' out some verses on the microphone

The crowd go loud but inside they hate me

My own homies turned against me & someday they might bait me

Feeling so hollow and cold 'cause hatred creates me

Create me and i create a spark that will turn into flame

I stand up on my feet, I say no to the fame

Cause I know it changes the homies in the main game

They bitch about me but they dont deserve to take my name

Cause haters gonna hate, and they gonna hide in shame

Just a message to the world that they cant tame

me and my homie Nishant we are insane 

and we might explode on mike like a hurricane

we the dreamers, the future, the dope rappers in the rap game

Cause hate all u want i'll be getting stronger

I live longer cause i dont give a fuck about these gossip mongers

These hoes stole my homie, that's why I go bonkers

I move on, realizing I gotta be self independant

I believe in myself, got no rings or a pendant

keeping my head up cause I know I'm David's descendant

Never lost hope, even when the whole world ended!

I bent it like a psychic bends a spoon

Born as a poet with 10 curses and a single boon!

Light in the darkness!

I confess that I was obsessed and I was stressed

'cause I was in love with a princess

fading like an evanescence

And Ever since I looked into your eyes

I saw the fluoroscence

I was away from the love nonsense,

got tensed, then again fell back into the fence

I tried to keep myself busy with friends

but it seems getting away from you is incompetence

and I can't compete with your beauty, I admit defeat

I quit, everytime I see you my heart skips a beat

Chatting all day but we are too lazy to meet

I'm too lazy to ask you out for real

I feel like nothing in front of you, you are surreal

I tell myself to deal with this feeling

Thinking bout you when I look over the ceiling

I can't sleep, I can't rest,

I can't study for the coming test

But its best if I go my seperate way

Your face pops up on the screen every single day

Relationships come with a price, I ain't ready to pay it

My life's like an unlucky dice, I just can't say it

I spit the truth on the mike but can't weigh it

Always measuring love unable to afford 

A farmboy in love with a princess got sliced with a sword!

And my greatest reward will be to see you smile

walk a thousand miles just to see you shine!

Don't misunderstand me, but try to understand

'cause I care about you more than my rhymes

You are the light shining down on me, even in the darkest times!

Ain't no other like my Mother! (Love till the end of time)

Plenty of love she brings, her smile turned the autumn into spring

Sent from up above, she sacrificed everything

for her children, she would do anything

take the suffering with a smile, and her smile's got the bling

and its a delight to hear her sing the devotional songs,

she never shed a tear even when things went wrong, she stayed strong 

Raised us and gave us whatever she could

Praised us and saved us, always she stood

right beside us in case I got lost

wipe the tears from my eyes

and hug me making me defrost

And only the four of us knew

how much you have struggled

Even when the wealth left

You saw to it that we weren't troubled

I wish I could be like you and face the situation 

But it seems it takes hard work and utter dedication

You always stood up and handled it

Fixed everything even when fate dismantled it

Even though you had appointments you cancelled it

cause of your sick kid in bed who is thankful that

you brought light into his life and taught him to face his fears

You felt the pain I was in, when I was shedding tears

Never seen a woman so graceful, so real

And I hope when I get married

my wife will have 1 of your skills

But Mom you can never be replaced

And without you home seems like a desert place

I understand, you are taking care of dad

He's been lucky that you were the gem he always had

And I'm glad Dad's back and he's recovering

I love you mom ! hope you return soon thinking

about you waiting for the phone ring!

Freestyle Feelings - The Pain is Gone!

There's a reason why I have no heart

I break what I touch that's the reason we are apart

 you fooled me with that smile of yours

I was lost and then you just crossed the way of course

Everything used to be so much better

Fell for her probably before I met her

The way I felt cannot compare

Cause Love is poison when your love doesn't care

I was blinded by the fair stares and the million flares in your eyes

She is a sugar coated demon in disguise

Faking smiles and breaking ties

As I used to die from inside

And I cry cause you aren't by my side

Used to blame you cause of your swollen pride

But now I know, you and me can never coincide

Cause you are fake and for you I'm just a downside

Down for you, gave you everything, but it don't suffice

Cause my real eyes don't realize

That all you do is tell me real lies !!!

I was young and I was foolish

And I did fall for this bullshit

But I can no longer do this

Screw this..Love, someone drag it out of my crest

Locked my heart in a chest, now I'm just heartless

Hate rushing through my veins, all I see is darkness

Threw the chest in the ocean now the pain is far less

Finally I'm sane and regardless of your nerdiness

I used to think bout you like I was jobless

But now everything's gone

The emotions, the warmth and the love songs 

The late night conversations so what I'm alone

Away from you...yeah! I'm getting in my zone

For them brothers who have gone

Through the same zone, cheer up and sing this song all day long