The damn chat

Ain't nothing real it was only meant to be virtual
Fell in love once the feeling was perpetual
For me chatting with you was more than crucial
But them feels were never mutual, coz u never had interest
My heart got played, now I give a fuck less
Sleepless nights, days seem countless,
Unable to concentrate, she's like a game of chess
Maybe she hates me or jus wanna checkmate me
She might be an e.t. tryna alienate me
Both of us playing a game of silence till we become strangers
Always thought of us like Ron and Hermione Granger
But wait it ain't true , you are right cause i never knew the real you
We were worlds apart chatting seemed the only way through
So what am I to do, was wrong when I thought I could get over you
For you all those talks was trash, but for me it was bliss as I grew into you
And I miss the nights we talked, every time I felt glued to you
I just wish I can find all the pieces of my heart
That you broke when you were ripping it apart
Cause I thought you was smart, never wanted to force into anything you don't want
I just wanted to profess my love to a princess who loves to flaunt
Her smile and melt away all the stresses
And I hope your dream guy buys you all the dresses
And know this I can never diss you cause you were my first and my last
Even though you far, i miss you, I hope your happiness be vast

Hellbound!

This is a story of a child aged twelve

who lost everything and had to be raised up in hell

His momma picked him up every time he fell

And Every time he fell in love he was under a spell

Though God never gave him anything in his life

He never complained a bit though it seemed trife

But his friends had fortune which he couldn't afford

He wanted to tell how he felt but he implored

to Lord to show him a way and to restore

Peace in his mind as everything was burning down

His house, his health and even his pop's crown

He wanted to be loved, to be understood

A lil kid with big dreams writing in dark 'cause he could

tell stories and move people with rhymes

and everytime he picked up the pen he gave punchlines

Punch rappin swines in the face who talked about gettin' laid

and lemme tell you this son? It's all about being paid

If you gettin paid, the world will follow you

was the quote of the kid who swallowed you

and spit you out cause ya'all rappers ain't got ill flows

He believed in love and destiny, not grilled hoes

and although he chose to be alone

Keeping his thoughts hidden, rappin on his own all day long!

He knew patience was the solution to all his questions

Looking for answers like a wiz looking for potions

His lyrics had a meaning and a message as the bottomline

Worked hard, faced the problems, in total, ninety nine!

Every fragile situation you ever imagined

this kid learnt it the hard way as he smashed in

and breaked down the wall before it could break him down

He was free from the prison at last, made his parents proud!

Pow! is the sound, of him knocking his demons to the ground

And so he chose the light even though he was born hell bound!

J.A.C.K.

The world tells me I'm cynical but all I'm tryna do is be a bit lyrical

I stare at my shadows thinking you behind me

You were once beside me now I'm alone doing this rhyming

And I keep climbing hoping I don't drop

I made a few new friends but the memories don't stop

We were like warriors born and bred in the wild

But I ask God right now why did you have to take a child?

The one who brought the definition to the realest smile

so fearless he could take down anyone with his fist and style

and You meant a lot to me like notorious b.i.g. did to pac

You left this world without me, leaving a mark on my heart

And nothing could tear us apart right from the start

World doesn't seem interesting anymore I'm lost in the dark

'Cause HE took away only thing that mattered like a spark

They tell me to move on, but I'm not strong enough

I can't bury the past when my present seems so tough

Imma rap till I last, the day I will turn to dust

At first I gotta say homie this world is mean and unjust

They use you then throw you around, thats the reason I don't trust

And it was a plus when you were around like a midnight star

But all I can say is I'll be there wherever you are

See this halo on my head, see, my face has a scar

I'm too weak to travel to heaven, God why you so far?

and of course J.A.C.K. is the letters you'll find on my constellation stars!!

Last Bench Cipher!

You can take my grade away but you cannot take my pride

You got them others afraid but you know who's dead inside?

You throw us around like we some sort of tool

Why should I complete my books? Am I in a fuckin' school?

You teach and you preach but you got a bad temper

It's like my smile angers your mind then you go hyper

And curse a backbencher decode his ass like its a cipher

Gun you down with a rifle cause you were todays supervisor

And it would be wiser if you stop being a patronizer

You got a grudge with me but don't you judge me, criticizer!

You talk about our future tell us that we are going down the drain

But it is you who will suffer pain in your brain

This ain't a curse just a piece of advice

Respect us for the way we are, don't you ball your eyes

Damn I miss my second year life, time flies before you even realise

Now you are on the fire the next second you are paralyzed

frozen in a block of ice but you cannot let yourself be downsized

Someday they'll be surprised cause like a phoenix from the ashes YOU WILL RISE!

Angel on the Shoulder!

Sometimes it may feel that you have lost the battle

Sometimes your feet becomes too weak to travel

Love starts to hate you, your shadow tries to evade you

And in your heart you know that your friends ready to cremate you

But you gotta know that love is what made you

And even though I'm an atheist I'm ready to aid you

They played you and took your heart away

But you gotta try to keep your sorrow at bay

'Cause you only live once, stop thinking about the past

Agony and sufferings go hand in hand but I'm sure todays the last

Gotta assure yourself that you'll prosper no matter what?

And watch the world that ignored you burning like a crack pot

And if you reading this, sit down with me sometime and we'll sort

about our preferences and indifferences, yeah I miss my old me a lot!

And I admit I miss my homie who used to rock 

the floor pretty great

Locked my ego in a trunk, thinking about the heaven gates

I'll not let you jump out this window cause I know that state

My heads feeling numb cause I'm too evil to mate

with these people so overweight with their own problems

Reach out brother grab my hand and we can solve em

And to all my mates who feel like they aren't being loved

There are plenty of fishes in the sea ready to serve

My advice is get rich and they'll fly around you like a dove

Just Keep ya head up and look up into the sky above

Think of what you have and all the people that care silently

I'll be the angel on your shoulder watching over you quietly!

Ugly and proud!

Born ugly and broke, yet I'm thankful to God

Treated like a joke, 'cause I find it hard to afford

all the gadgets and the latest accesorries

with Android OS and those annoying blackberries

I stay stranded in this age of technology

My wishes never granted, God don't acknowledge me

And this college be

becoming more and more hectic

Its a season of Love but I find myself sceptic

Seems like my mind and heart got opposite perspective

My songs be ineffective, wrote a lot but she doesn't respect it

Deliberately she pretend to hate me

And lately I've been in love greatly

But the fact that she doesn't care don't phase me

I'm twice as strong now and when I swear, I go crazy

I open my arms out wide but she doesn't embrace me

Fuck it! I might as well hit you with an empty bucket

Thanking God, moving on, got an empty pocket

Criticizing me was so unwise, you better lock it

in your brain that I refrain the pain

and I'm trained to unchain these chains

You go your way, I'll go my way

'Cause I'm the way I am

No matter what a bitch says

I ain't gonna change and I got no change

for your petty mind, I can't arrange

my lifestyle even though I love your smile

I don't see your shine anymore, you make me feel low

And I don't see your face glow 'cause I burnt the page

in which I wrote how I was engaged with you and died an old age

I don't know how many men you've caged?

How many souls have you trapped? how many stares you exchanged?

and maybe I'm crazed 'cause i'm the ugliest emcee on the planet

you just a hater now, and I take no haters for granted!

In Search of God (Drownin')!

Head's got a subtle brain,

looking at the mirror my body's in double pain

Moving from cities to cities, but still stuck in the fast lane,

'cause after the fire came the rain

and after pleasure there's pain

If you think rain's making you love

Guess what? you've gone insane

Always been my destiny to be lonely

and I write rhymes so that it won't blow me

and take my ass back to asylum

Mind's acidic like this rain, gotta huge problem

'cause I wrote disses on my friend

And this demons make my ego bend

like a cloudy weather, I can't make out whether

I'm a human or a fallen angel, losing all my feathers

Fire in my speech but truth is what I preach, 

still I talk trash and dress like a messy beggar

This ain't a song, this is me correcting all my errors

This is me trying and controlling my temper

Hope this rain washes away all the hate and the guilt

my body's weak but my thoughts be well built

Climb up the hill, 'cause I don't wanna drown in this flood

I'm shivering and I can't swim my feets stuck in the mud

Calling out the name of the Lord, water in my vocal chord,

Can I be saved even if I've got issues with the GOD?